Life didn't get easier, even in another world

Chương 408: Plan

Chương 408: PlanSitting beside the bed, Kairen stared at the person who was thinner and paler than the last time he'd seen him. 

"Hmm... So you see, I have... these fucked up dreams..." Kairen began talking with a shaky and hoarse voice, but suddenly paused and giggled. 

"It feels so stupid to talk to your body when I've already met you in The Void. I'm feeling ashamed. It wasn't this embarrassing before."

A tear droplet rolled down his cheek and dripped over his pants. 

"Ah, this feels so suffocating."

He didn't mean seeing Kain, but the whole situation. Everything was making him feel suffocated. The situation of this world, the gloomy atmosphere of the city, being alone in this hospital, and all of Reynold's memories, was suffocating. 

When he woke up, it took a while for Kairen to realize that he wasn't Reynold anymore, and when he came to that realization, he sighed in relief. He was glad, from the bottom of his heart, that he didn't need to experience that life again. Even after going through it once and then remembering its memories, it was still not something Kairen wanted to experience.

He didn't feel it when he was Reynold, but looking back at it now, that kind of life wasn't something he'd ever want to have. It was fine when he was Reynold, but now, the whole memory felt too heavy for him to bear. Kairen didn't think he could survive a day like that, even though they were literally the same person. 

"I'm Kairen. Kairen. Kairen, not Reynold."

He repeated so that he wouldn't confuse the matters. 

'Huh, but seriously I... I mean Reynold, was a genius. How can he do so many things? And he even managed to fully understand what Roy intended to do. Despite having his memories which contain all of that knowledge, I still can't process them properly... How is that possible? Aren't we the same people? How can I not understand something I have in my memories? Is it even logical?'

Kairen found it extremely unfair. Thinking back at his conversation with Roy when he was in The Void, he remembered the man mentioning something about this. 

'What did he say again? Something about my brain getting damaged? I'm sure that was a joke, though. Does one's intelligence come from the soul? I don't think so. It should depend on genetics, right? Me and Reynold only share our souls, not our bodies... Yeah, that must be it-'

"Ren_"

Tap

A hand came out of nowhere and landed on his shoulder with a voice that echoed right beneath his ear. 

"Gaaah!"

The same hand pressed down on his body, preventing him from jumping up and running away. 

"Whaaatt?!?!??"

"It's me! It's me calm down!"

Kairen snapped his neck to the side and stared at the parson behind him, wide eyes.

"...Oh, Ron..."

The familiar face of his brother entered his vision once he looked back. 

"You frightened me! What did you think you were doing, huh? Knock the door or something before giving a fright!"

Aaron pulled his face back with a frown. 

"I called you multiple times but you didn't answer, so I came closer- wait..." The man blinked his dilated eyes, "...You're crying?"

"...."

Kairen touched his face. It was wet. 

"Um, I think so..."

He must've forgotten about that. Kairen gave his brother a smile, wiped his face, then turned back to the still-dazed man. 

"Did you come back from a mission?"

Aaron was wearing his all-black battle uniform, which meant a tight shirt and his cloak. No matter what others did, he refused to wear formal and normal battle attire and kept on using normal clothes and his cloak. 

"...Yeah. I just came back. I didn't find you in your room so came